Penny Brohn, The Bristol Whole Life Approach, healing, recovery and moving forward from my cervical cancer diagnosis and treatment
It has been months since my last post which is primarily because during my treatment I felt so completely awful. As such I really needed to just focus inwards, on taking care of my self and that meant shutting off from everything else for a while.
However, it has now been almost 10 weeks since I completed my course of chemo and radiotherapy and I’m feeling really good: not just because the side effects have passed (there was a time when I thought I might never stop vomiting) but because I’m beginning to move forward and take back control over my life and my body. This feeling of empowerment has developed following attending a ‘Living well with the impact of cancer’ course at Penny Brohn UK, where I learnt the foundations of The Bristol Whole Life Approach and began to develop the tools to take ownership of my health and wellbeing.
The organisation was founded by Penny Brohn, who was diagnosed with breast cancer in 1979 and quickly came to the realisation that she needed more than just treatment and the associated medical care, rather that she needed to attend to her mind, body, spirit and emotions in equal measure. In 1983, with the help of her close friend Pat Pilkington she opened The Bristol Cancer Help Centre. At the time, this holistic approach was not widely acknowledged by the medical profession. However, since then healthcare and healthcare professionals have come to recognise that health and wellbeing are about far more than just the body and that a person living with cancer can do a great deal to help themselves. Since those humble beginnings and thanks to Penny Brohn and Pat Pilkington, Penny Brohn UK is now nationally recognised in the field of integrative medicine and has enriched the lives of thousands of people living with and beyond cancer.
The Bristol Whole Life Approach is at the core of the work at Penny Brohn. Building resilience into everyday life is central to this, supporting the body’s immune system (our natural ability to heal and protect against illness and disease). This involves recognising that our mind, body, spirit and emotions, are all interconnected, working together to support our immune system.
The Approach provides support that cares for the needs of the body, mind, emotions and spirit. It is based upon Psychoneuroimmunology (PNI), which is the study of the connections between our mind, nervous system and immune system (This area of research is really interesting and there is a link below which goes into a bit more detail). Essentially, stress has a profound effect on your immune system and wellbeing and modern day life is pretty stressful: this is unavoidable, we cannot remove stress from our lives entirely, but we can do things to manage and relieve stress. The charity aims to support all people living with or beyond cancer (and their close supporters) in ways that empower, giving you both support (such as counselling or nutrition advice) and the tools to help yourself make lifestyle changes (such as daily meditation practice). They do this through courses, groups and individual sessions. It is a charity which means they are reliant on funding, but all services are completely free of charge!
One of the things that I struggled with when I was diagnosed with cancer was understanding how my immune system had been unable to effectively fight HPV; resulting in abnormal cell changes growing and developing to the point that they were cancerous. I had run a half marathon just a few months earlier, had a pretty good diet (no meat and limited animal products, lots of fruit and veg etc) and I rarely got ill, so honestly I was kind of miffed about what had gone wrong. Attending this course opened my eyes and I can honestly say has changed my life indefinitely. What I learnt is that we are so much more than just our bodies, that wellness is not a checklist: something to be achieved by going through the motions. Rather, it is about being attentive, mindful and in the moment; it’s about checking in and rechecking in all the time about what you think, what you feel, what you need and embracing whatever arises and finding effective ways to cope with the challenges of everyday life.
Originally I was booked to attend the course in April, however this clashed with my treatment so I rearranged for the end of June. I attended a residential course at the main centre in Bristol (although they do run non-residential courses at various venues across the country). Now what happens within the group stays within the group because it is a safe space for people to let their guard down and embrace the learning/supportive experience. What I can say is that I was blown away by the bravery and open-minded attitude of all who attended and it was a pleasure and a priviledge to share that space with them. The ‘teaching’ centred around the 4 main areas (mind, body, emotions and spirit) as well as considering environment, practical issues, community and relationships. Various techniques were offered as a means of helping to deal with stress; this included meditation, mindfulness, relaxation and imagery. The course offered an overview of each area with some useful advice and discussions on each subject then encouraged you to explore what that meant for you and what changes you could make. It involved creating care plans with goals to be regularly re-evaluated moving forward. The experience was restful and relaxing, but emotionally gruelling and tiring at the same time. At times it was sad and difficult but ultimately it was an eye opening experience that I needed to have and I left feeling empowered, grateful, inspired, hopeful and back in control.
For me regaining a sense of autonomy over my own body has been so important. I am a fiercely independent person and I feel like cancer took that away from me. All of a sudden there were other people telling me what I needed to do and everything I needed was out of my control, and whilst I am eternally grateful for the treatment that I have received, that was something that I found especially difficult. I am not suggesting for a moment that I would have declined treatment: I have faith in medicine and zero doubt that the treatment I received was what was best for me. However, I did feel like my body was not my own for a while and it feels so good and so empowering to feel now that I am in a place (and have the tools) to be able to do everything I can to recover from cancer and treatment, prevent recurrence, take care of my whole self and live well with and beyond cancer.
So now I am faced with the uncertainty of what will happen next and what that will mean for me. I am hopeful that I am cancer free but at this stage I don’t know that. What will follow is continued monitoring for the next 5 years minimum, starting with a scan in a couple of months time. Implementing initial lifestyle changes is relatively easy when you are in a safe and supportive environment with no commitments, making those changes stick long term is more challenging. It requires continuous effort, making time and recognising that you deserve that time to look after yourself. I feel confident that with the continued support of Penny Brohn UK I will be able to keep up with the changes I have already made and in time will be able to make more.
My intention is to follow this post with more detailed discussions of some of the things I have learnt from the course in 4 separate posts relating to mind, body, spirit and emotions because although the focus at Penny Brohn is on those with cancer the principles are really about taking care of your whole self and that applies to, and is important for everyone.
A really useful clip about resilience and balance: https://www.pennybrohn.org.uk/wp-content/uploads/2017/03/Website-Boat-Sequence-Compressed.mp4
Psychoneuroimmunology info: https://www.pennybrohn.org.uk/why-choose-us/what-we-do/
Information about fundraising for Penny Brohn and how to get involved: https://www.pennybrohn.org.uk/get-involved/fundraise/